Fo sho

   Maybe God has given me a life without something horrible and life changing because he wants me to be aware of the underlying problems, below all of things that can happen. I see people blaming their problems, or personalities on a raping, or death, or losing everything they have ever worked for. Any of these things could change your life. I see the truth to their blame.
   Maybe, for some odd reason, God knew i would blame any deep thought on a happening and not on the entirety of our state as people. What i mean to say, is that i would justify my misbehavior, and sulk into myself for no other reason than knowing it just had to have been from something worldly. That is my personality after all. I would miss the fact that we are just empty without God, and every tragedy is surfaced from that. That one, simple, profound "fact".
   I spend so much time thinking of ways to bring hope to people that are broken, broken from something or someone. But the logic just doesn't seem to bring any hope from their problems. Maybe God has given me a clean slate and mind to realize this fully. And know that there is more to our heart and disconnection than just what happens from worldly tragedies. 
   It is obviously a blessing, but im seeing so much more without the fog of any broken past. Im figuring it out, i can feel my heart closing in on something brilliant. It's so mysterious, and my heart pounds at the pleasure.